and here we go again,
after days and days of being cat and mouse.. we were still cat and mouse. :)
.. I was feeling very irritable these past few days, for no reason. but all I could feel was anger and hatred. I was stuck here at my house and got nothing to do but to read books, reread again, answer my test papers and then read again. While I'm stuck here waiting and concentrating, My girlfriend is having fun. Really she is, malling, shopping, resting, sleeping, eating and is having the time of her life and enjoy every Milli second of it. I was so envious, All I want to do is do what she does and be with her 24/7.
.. And because I'm too anxious, and I just can't contain myself. I burst into tears and told her.
" I feel that your taking me for granted, is this what you want? please stop torturing me" and my girlfriend was like " huh? what are you talking about? " and then I just heard myself telling her nonsense things.
Hours after talking, explaining and assuring me that there is nothing goin' on, I finally surrendered. Maybe I'm just too jealous that she's doing something enjoying without me.
Moral Lesson?
.. Don't be paranoid. My girlfriend told me that she loves me so much and no matter what she's doing, she always wish that she does it with me. That I'm always on her mind and heart and will never ever split up with me. I'm very lucky to have her in my life. Thank you for being patient lovey! <3
